20 years old, a blog held from the age of 16, Australia, girl, young adult problems and resolutions, an honest and dry look at myself learning to be a better, bigger, happier person, artist, photographer.

Trying to find my place in the world, a career, a family, to move on from the hectic world of the Bartender.

- Archives - April 2011 November 2012

• I'm about to turn 19 years old.
• I'm 5'8, or on the upper end of 172cm tall. 59kg.
• I'm a geek -- Apple products, Microsoft products, and a tiny tiny bit of Linux.
• I ride horses professionally, and train.
• My name without vowels is Ssch Rchrdsn
• Sometimes I forget to eat.
• I really liked English in school, but my favorite English teacher didn't like me very much.
• I'm really not a very strong swimmer.
• A cassingle is a cassette single. 
• I remember using video tapes.
• My favorite movie as a child was Jumanji.
• I'm a very proud brunette. I love my hair. I wear it like a hat. An expensive, silken hat.
• I really like sleeping in panties and an oversized mens shirt. It makes me feel delicate.
• I used to be very fat. Now I'm not.
• I used to be bulimic. Now I'm not. Most of the time.
• I was in love. I'm still in love. 
• I work 2 jobs. Both are bartending. 
• I full-time study on top of work.
• I drive a very old, very falling-apart but very well loved pickup truck.
• I have green eyes.
• Sometimes I wonder if I should be a little more ambitious. I want a position of power in a career, but then power isn't that important to me. I'd just as soon stay in a menial position and let other peoples hair fall out from stress while staying in late at the office.
• I'm a brilliant bartendress. I want to work in a nightclub, as opposed to my current position in a pub.
• Being a bartender, I now drink very, very rarely.
• I believe very strongly in nature. Some people call it God, some people call it spiritual. Call it what you want.
• I really like old Disney cartoons.
• I'm not very good at about me's. I know it's because I'm not very self aware. I'm working on it.
• I like to sleep cuddled up to something. I'm a sooky-lala at heart. A teddy. A pillow. A man.
• I'm not afraid of spiders. I'm not afraid of snakes. Or mice. Or rats. I kind of like all of them.
• I don't know if I'm really scared of anything, or just aprehensive.
• My grandmother once rubbed my chest with Vicks vapor rub when I was sick. When she died, this was my fondest memory of her,
• I want a husband and children. Soon.
• I really like Calvin Klien adverts.
• I have really expensive hobbies. Cars, horses and camera.
• I really like big dogs, but not little ones.
• I like the show Full House, and various other 80's sitcoms. Like ALF.
• Snails are really cute.
• I like trance, dubstep, house, mashups, raw rap, indie rock, folk, classical rock, classical music.
• I really like stubble on men. Refer to Calvin Klien advert point.
• Complete hippie in many aspects. 
• I'm very well educated and cultured. But most of the time, I'm barefoot.
• Vegan.
• I have a good luck charm. It's a small pebble with a loveheart on it that I found in the Blue Mountains.
• I watched a dog rip a live, screaming fox apart once.
• Speaking of pebbles, did you know penguins exchange pebbles for sex?
• I've always wanted to slow-dance with the person I love.
• I really like lava lamps and neon lights. But I tend to wear mostly black. Go figure.
• I imagine myself as very successful, but I don't know if I want success to feel powerful or so I don't feel inadequate.